Brave.

I tucked the boys in for the last time tonight.  I cried intermittently most of the day/night, because ready or not, this is happening tomorrow!  Rabbit asked me why I was crying.  “Is it because I am such an awesome boy?”  Yes, yes it is.  I had so many things I wanted to tell them at bedtime, but I couldn’t get many words out.  I told them they were brave and strong and we loved them.  So much.   We had two signs made for above their beds a couple of days before they moved in.  One says, “Be brave, little one.”  The other says, “You are our greatest adventure.”  I remember sitting in their room the night before they  moved in, looking at those signs, wondering how on earth we were going to parent 6 kids.  Wondering what they looked like.  Wondering what they were like…how long they would be with us.  I underestimated how long they would be with us and how much it would change us all.   Here we are, where our roads split.  I will sit in this moment…I will notice the Christmas tree illuminating the darkness, feel the peace that is 6 sleeping kids, listen to the Lumineers sing “nobody knows” for the third time, and toast to their forever family.  Be brave, little ones, and know you will be your forever family’s greatest adventure, too.

“Nobody Knows”

Nobody knows how to say goodbye

It seems so easy ’til you try
Then the moments passed you by
Nobody knows how to say goodbye Nobody knows how to get back home
And we set out so long ago
Search the heavens and the Earth below
Nobody knows how to get back home

Through the darkness to the dawn
And when I looked back you were gone
Heard your voice leading me on
Through the darkness to the dawn

Love is deep as the road is long
And moves my feet to carry on
It beats my heart when you are gone
Love is deep as the road is long

Nobody knows how the story ends
Live the day, doing what you can
This is only where it begins
Nobody knows how the story ends
Nobody knows how the story ends

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2 thoughts on “Brave.

  1. You are safe. You are strong. And you are loved.

    That was our tick in mantra for years. Thinking of you. You’re strong and loved, too.

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